Recent events have confirmed that I trust the wrong people, I have a lifelong habit of ignoring red flags in people’s behaviour and I believe people who claim to care – but don’t.
I will never repeat these patterns again…………. because I will never talk to anyone about my trauma and never trust anyone again.
I’ve tried to trust people who are meant to be trustworthy.
I’m too ill to keep being hurt. To keep being let down. To keep having people fail me when I really need help the most.
If you never talk to anyone about your trauma – they can’t use it to harm you.
If you never trust anyone – they can’t let you down.
Not advice I believe is for everyone.
But, for me….. it’s necessary.
I clearly cannot find the right people to trust, and I am too ill and too broken to ever try again.
I am so broken down, I fear I will never recover.
My health is deteriorating week by week and my life issues continue to worsen.
I am beyond broken.