Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.


Not Surprised A Member Of The Narcissist Ministers’s Baptist Church – Has Reached Out To Me For Help

Recently a church member – where the abusive narcissist minister resides – reached out to me – as their church is now “fractured”.

Sadly, it doesn’t surprise me in the slightest. A fractured church is exactly what a narcissist minister will have. There will never be peace, or anything healthy – when a narcissist is in charge.

The person who reached out wanted to know what I endured and how those affected can heal.

I wrote back, explaining narcissism, how it’s not treatable, they do not change, it’s all about his ego, he doesn’t know God, his ego and character disturbed issues are his god. I also explained he would need to be ousted – for that church to heal.

In the past – I prayed for discerning people at that church – to work him out. It seems my prayers were answered. I will continue to pray for their wisdom and discernment on how to proceed. It’s not my responsibility any more. I did all I could to stop people getting hurt.

The Baptists church failed to deal with it appropriately and they have now allowed more people to get hurt. That’s on them, and the narcissist minister.

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Dealing With The Trauma Of 18 Years Married To A Sociopath Rapist ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

I’ve been very quiet on this blog – for several reasons. It’s been a very hard 6 months and I’m still dealing with the trauma every day.

I’ve been diagnosed with Vaso Vagal Nerve Damage – caused by extreme distress – as per a cardiologist. The cardiologist knows my history and stated the domestic violence I have endured for the last 18 years – is the cause of this untreatable, irreversible nerve damage – which causes me to have orthostatic hypotension and I am unable to work. I am disabled.

My health was fine when I met my husband 18 years ago. I was working and could exercise hard. The slow insidious abuse inflicted by my husband being a sociopath and sex abuser – destroyed my health. It is the reason for my PTSD breakdown 6 years ago.

Through counselling (which my counsellor admits she has made big mistakes in at times) – I have had to understand my husband is a narcissistic sociopath – no conscience, no remorse, no guilt, no shame, exploitative, overwhelmingly selfish, pathological liar, enjoys hurting people, enjoys seeing people hurt and upset (even children) and enjoyed coercing a sexual abuse survivor – into unwanted sex.

My counsellor arranged for him to have counselling with a psychologist who specialises in sex offenders/abusers. But, before the psychologist was able to start dealing with his sex abuser issues – my husband quit counselling. She has stated what he did was sexual abuse and rape. 

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