My counsellor, who is also a GP, has asked me to consider speaking to a group of 20 young doctors about my experiences with trauma. This is to help – GP’s help their patients in a more appropriate way.
My immediate reaction – OH MY GOD NO……….. !!!! I hate speaking in groups of people, and especially people I don’t know!!!
Arrrgggghhhhhh! :O :O :O :O :O
I do know my counsellor would not ask me, if she didn’t think I could this. And she has made it very clear I can say no. And I know this is an opportunity to show that complex trauma survivors, can indeed be intelligent, have insight, and are not ‘crazy’. It’s an opportunity to help raise awareness about Complex PTSD and how many people are enduring this, many of whom don’t even realise they have this. And to talk about what helps us, and what hinders us.
But, whilst I truly feel massive anxiety at the thought of doing this…. it would be good for two reasons… it would help doctors be more trauma informed….. and it would make me face my fear of public speaking. Continue reading