I’ve read that long term PTSD shortens lifespan. I’ve read this before and just ignored it, as this is too hard to deal with.
I’ve had PTSD since childhood and had chronic fear, anxiety, stress, pain, depression etc since childhood and I am aware this is a massive amount of stress on my body.
Let alone the effect this all has on mental health, and my PTSD has become worse and worse.
I read about a man, who’s mother died when he was a teenager, due to her having medical problems induced by PTSD. I immediately thought about my children, and how I don’t want this to happen to them. I don’t want them to lose their mother in their teens, or even in their 20’s. I don’t want to not see my grandchildren.
I’m aware my PTSD is severe. It is life threatening at times. My nightmares are regular. The intrusive thoughts are every day. My anxiety is bad, I get hives often. My hyper vigilance is out of control. My energy levels are really low and sometimes I have said, I feel like an old woman, physically. I do often. And the amount my body has been through, it is like an old woman. My body has been through so much. Continue reading