Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Jesus often wept the sins & consequences of sin & there are no recordable instances of Him laughing.

People think I am irrational, when I say the world is dangerous and abusive and this is increasing. They believe I am scarred by my own abuse experiences and this is ‘all’ due to my Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.

Child abuse stats are so high, they are a worldwide epidemic. Violence to woman stats are so high, they are a worldwide epidemic.

And abuse and danger, occurs within Christianity, as much as outside of it. And this is because people are deeply sinful and all very capable of causing much harm, and mostly choose to justify it, because of their lack of honesty, lack of capacity to admit wrongs and many more human sinful behaviours.

And this is being increasingly condoned, ignored and normalised. The child abuse stats are so high. it’s becoming ‘a normal life experience’ to be abused as a child and people are accepting of this, as though nothing can change. Lack of empathy is great in this world. Continue reading

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Another Empath Expressing Much Of What I See In Our ‘Apath/Narcissistic’ Society


This was good reading, and echoes a lot of what I understand about society and the huge proportion of how he terms them “apaths/minions/selfish/lazy/cowardly types” – and he states….

“You see, its a form of retardation. No– really. I’m not kidding. Their brains are fucked up.”

Interesting and certainly a lot more bluntly stated, than I would express it.

Yes, I agree, the largest proportion of the population, are lacking in emotional intelligence, selfish, cowardly, ‘all about me’, often narcissistic, and I have seen this very clearly.

I also agree they have more ‘issues’ than they will ever realise, or acknowledge, or have to capacity to understand, because their self insight, is also very lacking, plus their ego’s won’t let them admit, just how lacking they are.

I guess you can call their emotional development – retarded. And I do see how they are actually ‘fucked up’, but have no clue.

Denial and ignorance…….is a safe place to live. For them.

They sure do love their ‘easy lives’ and fight hard to keep it that way. Their capacity to ignore all the real suffering in this world, is impressive, but very sad and very immature. Continue reading

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Empathy Distress Fatigue, a more appropriate term than Compassion Fatigue

I have read a fair amount compassion fatigue and I know it is not just about caregivers (although that has been my role since childhood), and I have some symptoms, withdrawing, wishing I didn’t have empathy, wishing sometimes that I could not care like the 60% of the population that are apaths.

I don’t have that ability to have apathy, or be an apath, without withdrawing from society completely. I hate apathy. It’s what causes so much harm in this world.

Apathy is about selfishness, weakness, lack of empathy, being ‘all about me’, not being willing to take a stand for honesty and truth, ignoring sin and harm caused, minimizing other people’s suffering, enabling suffering – all the things I hate in this world, because I see the greater effects it has for millions of people suffering.

I have always known there are far more apathetic people like this. I have seen them all my life, and I need a break from society and all these people.

Most people I know and have met are apathetic. They delude themselves, to believe they have some level of empathy, but they don’t. When you scratch the surface of their shallow character, I can see they have no empathy at all. No emotional intelligence and mostly the ‘good’ they do is actually self serving to make themselves feel better, not for others at all and I can spot this a mile off. And this to me is lying, deceiving people, and I can see that too.

And this distresses me. Because people in the world are suffering, and most people who are not suffering, don’t give a shit. they just complain and whinge about their minor life issues, like having a cold, or not sleeping well one night. Pathetic. They clearly ignore all the ‘real’ suffering in this world.

‘Apathy is the world greatest weapon of mass destruction’. A quote I agree with completely.

This following is an exert from Oxford Neuroscientists…

Empathic Distress Fatigue Rather Than Compassion Fatigue? Integrating Findings from Empathy Research in Psychology and Social Neuroscience

Olga Klimecki

Tania Singer

In this chapter, we discuss the role of empathy as the main precursor for prosocial behavior, taking perspectives that span from social and developmental psychology to social neuroscience. Continue reading


Spiritual Gift of Intercession: Burden Bearing – The Biblical Term For Being An Empath

Knowing what I know now, I also know being an empath is a gift from God. I have always known my gifts are from God.

Doing research on where this empath fits into God’s plan and where it is within the Bible, I have already read about Ezekiel’s empathy – his empath gifting, his burden bearing.

Interestingly, I have being referred to as being like Ezekiel’s role, by both of my counsellors, due to having a Watchman role, but it would seem I have more in common with him, and his gifting, although no where near on the same scale.

God will be equipping people, with this gifting – it is not ‘just a story from the Bible’.

This was from a Christian website, dedicated to Christian Burden Bearing and is exactly the same as what I have read about being an Empath, only from a Biblical and God given gift aspect.

below is from http://christianempaths.blogspot.com.au/2012/03/spiritual-gift-of-intercession-burden_11.html

Chapter Two – Are you a Burden Bearer? Here is a list of questions to help to see if you think you have the gift of burden bearing?

Have you ever thought that you were broken?
Do you feel emotions intensely and do not know why you are feeling that way?
Do you feel like a Chameleon around different groups, always changing?
Do you wonder who you are?
Do you ever feel you are accursed of God, but you know He loves you?
Do you hate going into public places?
Can you tell who is suffering when you walk into a room?
Can you tell what they are going through?
Do you get sick and go to the doctor and nothing is wrong with you?
Do you see pain in the world and cry out to God with weeping and sorrow for them?
Do you feel rejected by people?
Do you like to isolate from people when it gets too bad? Continue reading