Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

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Not dealing with any issues that I don’t have to deal with.

I’ve shut down my community page, to avoid dealing daily with people’s negative issues …. the complaining, nastiness, selfishness and sense of entitlement to do so. When I am low…. every time on log on, I have anxiety that I know someone will have got nasty, twisted what I have written, made accusations and assumptions, not caring that their words – hurt. Every day, I deal with someone’s need to vent their issues, onto me.

I don’t want to bother my online friends, as I know they have their own struggles and it isn’t fair to dump mine on them. Plus, I do have trust issues with people I only know over the internet. And that is no reflection of any of them at all, it is trust issues I have that are mine to deal with.

My counselling has ended and that was my only support I thought I had.

I’m running on a completely empty tank. You can’t give to others, when running on an empty tank.

I am completely alone, I have no support from anyone physically in my life. No hope. No energy. No way to make anything better. Feel abandoned, alone and severely depressed.

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