I’ve shut down my community page, to avoid dealing daily with people’s negative issues …. the complaining, nastiness, selfishness and sense of entitlement to do so. When I am low…. every time on log on, I have anxiety that I know someone will have got nasty, twisted what I have written, made accusations and assumptions, not caring that their words – hurt. Every day, I deal with someone’s need to vent their issues, onto me.
I don’t want to bother my online friends, as I know they have their own struggles and it isn’t fair to dump mine on them. Plus, I do have trust issues with people I only know over the internet. And that is no reflection of any of them at all, it is trust issues I have that are mine to deal with.
My counselling has ended and that was my only support I thought I had.
I’m running on a completely empty tank. You can’t give to others, when running on an empty tank.
I am completely alone, I have no support from anyone physically in my life. No hope. No energy. No way to make anything better. Feel abandoned, alone and severely depressed.