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I Find Lana Del Rey’s Voice & Music Soothing

Even when I don’t necessarily relate to the lyrics (although I often do) – I find her voice so soothing. Her music is like a collection of adult lullabies.

When really struggling – I listen to her music a lot. She knows aloneness, depression, hopelessness, betrayal, struggle.

Often music has been my only way of coping.

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“I’ve been dying…For something real… But I’ve been dying for something real” – Lana Del Rey

A song that has significant meaning to me about someone I am grieving.

Lyrics

I don’t belong in the world
That’s what it is
Something separates me from other people
Everywhere I turn
There’s something blocking my escape

It took thirteen beaches to find one empty
But finally it’s mine
With dripping peaches
I’m camera ready
Almost all the time

But I still get lonely
And baby only then
Do I let myself recline?
Can I let go?
And let your memory dance
In the ballroom of my mind
Across the county line

It hurts to love you
But I still love you
It’s just the way I feel
And I’d be lying
If I kept hiding
The fact that I can’t deal
And that I’ve been dying
For something real
That I’ve been dying
For something real

It took thirteen beaches to find one empty
But finally I’m fine
Past Ventura
And lenses plenty
In the white sunshine

But you still can find me
If you ask nicely
Underneath the pines
With the daisies
Feeling hazy
In the ballroom of my mind
Across the county line

It hurts to love you
But I still love you
It’s just the way I feel
And I’d be lying
If I kept hiding
The fact that I can’t deal
And that I’ve been dying
For something real
That I’ve been dying
For something real

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This would be my preferred book title. But I won’t use it.

‘In The Land Of Gods And Monsters – I Was An Angel – Living In The Garden Of Evil’.

But, it is one of Lana Del Rey’s songs, and I wouldn’t try to use it due to integrity to not disrespect Lana and to not infringe copyright.

But, it is a very fitting book title.

And as she says “No-one’s gonna take my soul away”.


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Never get fed up of Lana’s voice

I find Lana Del Rey songs to be like soothing lullabies.

But with deep meaning in the lyrics, I identify with. 

Her music soothes me. It helps me cope. It helps my healing.

She will always be very special to me.

She’s not everyone’s cup of tea.

In fact, she is quite controversial.

Especially when misunderstood, buy those who don’t ‘get her’.

Which I also identify with.

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