Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.


I danced with the devil.

The first 20 years of my life, were ‘the garden of evil’.

Evil surrounded me.

I sought protection, in the wrong people.

More evil was inflicted.

Thoughts of death continually occupied my mind.

My get out.

My escape.

I wanted death often.

It will be a part of my life forever.

It will always be in my memories.

I still feel it.

As I sleep.

But, the nightmares are lessoning.

They worsen.

Then they lesson. Continue reading


A song that reminds me of my 20’s.


I discussed this song at counselling yesterday, and it’s significance to me. It reflects my 20’s.

I always knew there was more. Even though I had no idea what it was.

My entire 20’s was about suppressing the pain caused by the first 20 years of my life.

Lana Del Rey is not politically correct and the feminists don’t like her. But, Continue reading

Frances Bean Cobain is being highly un-empathic about Lana Del Rey’s emotions.


A shit storm had recently occurred on Twitter, when F B Cobain, stated Lana Del Rey was romanticising suicide.

Lana Del Rey stated during a recent interview – that was not meant to be aired publicly, she wishes she was dead already. It is clear from LDR’s music and lyrics, she has possibly struggled with suicide, suicide ideation and she has stated her music is about her life.

Suicide, is not selfish, it is not about being weak. But, so many in society have little empathy about this and have judgments that are so deeply un-empathic.

Obviously, F B Combain, has emotional reasons triggered by the suicide of her father, and never growing up with a father, to be upset about people speaking about suicide and wanting to be dead.

But, that does NOT give her the right to attack someone who is courageously voicing her own painful emotions and is in a deeply painful place.

Did FBC stop to think that attacking LDR publicly – may actually make LDR’s potential/possible life threatening situation worse? No she didn’t – she just thought about herself, in a very entitled and selfish manner. Continue reading

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Interesting viewpoints, of my favourite singer-songwriter, Lana Del Rey.

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While I agree with much of what is written in this ^ – I also just personally and deeply relate to much of what she writes/sings about and her videos.

I actually think she is extremely brave to write and sing about the personal issues that have occurred in her life.

And she has reportedly confirmed many times, she does write about her own personal experiences.

She is also a deeply compassionate person, who’s main work, is not singing, it’s helping alcoholics recover.

Yes, she may write about taboo subjects. I applaud her for that.

It takes courage, to be real, in this very fake world.