Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.


Beautiful gifts, from my beautiful boys for Mothers Day

I have to try really hard on Mothers Day, to focus on my boys, and not on my past. It’s hard, but I always succeed in focussing on what they need, and not how I feel inside.

My boys are very affectionate and loving boys, and they love giving gifts.


Beautiful love heart necklace and earrings ❤ ❤


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My children are my everything.

I had a terrible day yesterday. It was painful to a depth I cannot explain.

Then my children came home from school, and my 7 year old, gave me these. He had written them in school. He has never written notes like this in school to bring home. This was a first.



After I gave him cuddles and thanked him for how lovely and special they are, whilst trying to choke back tears…. he went and put the notes on my bedside drawers, so I would see them when I went to bed.


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I relate to this song, the ‘still love you’, part.

To love people, even when they have deeply hurt you, is so hard to endure.

It’s easier to hate, I would imagine.

But, I don’t.

I have boundaries now. I know I am worth being treated with respect and love. Not to be abused, hurt and harmed.

But, I believe real love, is unconditional. I believe in the kind of love Jesus has, where He loves, even when He hates behaviours and abusive harm caused to Himself, or others.

But, I am not Jesus, so I struggle deeply with knowing I know people who have hurt me so badly.

When I love people, I love them and that doesn’t die. Because if it does, then it was never real love in the first place.


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