Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.


Feeling increasingly depressed over the last few days & PTSD increasing.

A lot of the processing I do, isn’t bringing happiness. It’s the reality of the world I live in, what it is driven by, who it is driven by, and how much abuse, harm, terror, pain and suffering there is the world.

The processing I do about myself, just makes me more and more aware, of how ‘alien’ I am and that is indeed how I feel.

I feel very detached from this world. I feel very alone, in human terms. I’m trying really hard to be okay with that.

But, failing. Continue reading


Too much social media time – increases anxiety & affects mood….


The following is from this ^ link.

Our mood system is ordinarily very robust, for the most part we deal with knock backs and obstacles within a relatively short period of upset. Whether it’s an argument with a partner or family member, the car breaking down or something tragic we see on the news; we experience upset or annoyance but ordinarily our mood bounces back and is naturally restored before too long.

However, when we are struggling with low mood or anxious we are more vulnerable to external factors having an impact upon us. When the resilience of our mood system is reduced there is less of a ‘rebound’ back to a balanced mood. So it stands to reason that we are then more susceptible to prolonged low moods and the influence of negative events.

Is Modern Media Affecting Your Mood?

For example, when we watch the news we are often bombarded with negativity about events, locally or around the globe. Unfortunately human nature being what it is, bad news often attracts our attention more than good and so often the news is full of tragedy, injustice or sadness. In reality most of this news will have no impact upon our own reality and yet we feel drawn to it once we become aware of it.

If we have an awareness of our own vulnerability, then perhaps we can help ourselves by reducing the amount of negativity we expose ourselves to.

For example, if you know you are particularly sensitive to bad news about injustice, it may be worth considering what you stand to gain by exposing yourself to this? Continue reading

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Music, Triggers, Memories and Emotions…

I just heard this on the TV and wow, big load of memories, of emotions and feelings.

I listened to this a lot.

I love Bjork’s voice, emotion and her quirkiness.

Wow, this sure brings stuff back.

“Play Dead”

darling stop confusing me
with your wishful thinking
hopeful embraces
don’t you understand? Continue reading

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Happy music – can make you feel happy!

My boys love this song, which I believe is No1 in the charts here.

Watching them dancing and singing to this, makes me happy!

I am very sensitive to music – always have been. It’s an empath thing.

My mood can be changed by music.

But, seeing my boys happy is my greatest form of happiness.

Nice that this song is actually appropriate for children too.

Thank you God!