Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

A sense of humour, helps…. a parenting with PTSD nightmare!

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Having PTSD, means I have noise sensitivity issues. I struggle with high pitched, repetitive & competing noise. It worsens throughout the day, and on bad days, this sensitivity, is severe.

Being a parent with PTSD, is not easy at all. Being a parent itself, is a tough gig for anyone. Having PTSD makes it harder. But, I manage it well and know when I am becoming overwhelmed and how to manage all the symptoms and stress.

I have never liked recorders. They have a horrible pitch/noise and listening to children attempting to play them and constantly making mistakes……. is a PTSD noise sensitivity nightmare!

I posted this meme to my personal facebook and a mother I know from my 6 year olds school, responded to say the kids leave the recorders in school. I replied “thank God for that, I hate recorders!”.

I forget sometimes, just how hard a gig parenting with PTSD is. I should give myself more self compassion about this. I am too hard on myself I think, when it comes to parenting, Continue reading


Feeling increasingly depressed over the last few days & PTSD increasing.

A lot of the processing I do, isn’t bringing happiness. It’s the reality of the world I live in, what it is driven by, who it is driven by, and how much abuse, harm, terror, pain and suffering there is the world.

The processing I do about myself, just makes me more and more aware, of how ‘alien’ I am and that is indeed how I feel.

I feel very detached from this world. I feel very alone, in human terms. I’m trying really hard to be okay with that.

But, failing. Continue reading


Post Traumatic Stress Disorder & Noise Sensitivity & Hyperacusis


There is a confirmed link between PTSD and noise sensitivity and hyperacusis.

And I don’t mean the loud sounds, startle reflex types of sound.

I mean the real PTSD stressors, like tapping, high pitched sounds, competing sounds, the vacuum cleaner, the lawn mower, kids bouncing balls……..

On bad days – I can literally feel like I want to scream!!!!

It is literally pain in my head.

I also notice an increase in noise sensitivity later on in the day, when my brain is already overwhelmed, and an increase when I am stressed and my PTSD symptoms all increase.

It’s a not a commonly known one, but I have deep insight into my PTSD symptoms and why – so I researched it.



What Is Hyperacusis?

Hyperacusis is a condition that arises from a problem in the way the brain’s central auditory processing center perceives noise. It can often lead to pain and discomfort. Continue reading