I’ve learned to go with my emotions, emotional flashbacks. Rather than suppress them. I also know to not stay there long. But, it helps to just feel it. My past has made me who I am, and I honour each part of my journey. Rather than feel ashamed of it.
This song reminds me of being 16.
This song reminds me of my hurt inner child. And how I feel right now.
So many people say vulnerability, feeling scared, feeling fragile are all so wrong.
Well, in society terms I am a failure, weak and pathetic.
But, I am honest.
And this is how I feel, increasingly.
Or maybe, not increasingly, but I just acknowledge it more.
I feel it a lot. I feel unsafe.
I have most of my life.
Lyrics
Don’t Bring Me Down ~ Sia
Faint light of dawn
I’m listening to you
Breathing in and breathing out
Needing nothing
You’re honey dipped
You are beautiful
Floating clouds, soft world
I can’t feel my lips
I’m going down
I don’t want to change
I’m going down
Going down the drain
Don’t bring me down
I beg you
Don’t bring me down
I won’t let you
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Music has always been a huge part of my life, to cope, to express emotions I have never been allowed to express.
I feel blessed to find Sia’s music and relate so deeply.
I love how honest and real Sia is. She has also stated on Twitter, she had Bipolar 2 and PTSD.
I teared up when listening to her in tears about Howard Stern talking about her wanting to end her life, and calling her a diamond in the sky now shining and saying she is special.
I relate to her, even though we have very different lives. I didn’t know she had a bad childhood, but I suspected it. There is so much about how real and raw she is that I relate to deeply.
Many in society will say Sia doesn’t have the right ‘society boundaries’ – as I have also been accused of.
But, you know, I would rather have someone like Sia as a friend, who is real, honest and says it exactly as it is, than someone who holds back, presents a mask and I know they are not upfront about who they really are.
I love how real she is. Even if she say things that will shock others. She doesn’t shock me. I find it very refreshing to hear someone so honest about herself, good and bad. Takes courage.
I love this song, and the deeper meaning of these lyrics.
I ‘get’ so much of what Sia writes about.
Love this video someone has added to this.
“Eye Of The Needle”
Take me down
I’m feeling now
And if I move on
I admit you’re gone
And I ain’t ready
But I’ll hold steady
Yeah I’ll hold you
In my arms, in my arms
In my arms
And you’re locked inside my heart
And your melody’s an art
And I won’t let the terror in I’m stealing time
Through the eye of the needle
Step and repeat
Tears fall to the beat
Smile through the pain
Feel the acid rain
And I ain’t ready
But I’ll hold steady
Yeah I’ll hold you
In my arms, in my arms
In my arms
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