Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.


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Going to try and access a bulk billing psychiatrist.

I’m a mess, and I know I can’t do this alone. I need professional support and I need someone who truly understands complex trauma.

I’m going to contact the hospital I went to a few times when suicidal. They said I could phone them, or contact them, whenever I needed to. The male psychiatrist I saw, was really lovely and the woman I saw a few days later, was really easy to talk to.

I need to talk to someone who gets it and can validate my journey and not force personal opinions/beliefs on me. I need to see someone who won’t force their self serving opinions about heinous abusers on me. I need someone with the sensitivity and empathy to know what to say, and what not to say. Continue reading


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Sadly, I think too many ‘therapists’ enjoy shaming abuse survivors ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

I just witnessed interactions between a ‘therapist’ who claims to be a sexual abuse survivor – and another survivor on Twitter. The lack of empathy shown by the therapist was so harmful and I know this woman should not be a therapist.

I think too many therapists are unhealed abuse survivors, who are still in denial of their own issues, yet are deluded to believe they can counsel other survivors.

I think some of them also have narcissistic issues, that show in their lack of empathy.

I think some like to stroke their egos and lord it over other survivors as to how ‘freakin amazing’ the therapist believes she/he is. Which is again is more narcissism.

Too many therapists shame others. They use insensitive language and they truly don’t care how that is harmful. When questioned they refuse to acknowledge this, and just default to the ‘I am right and you are wrong’ belief system.

I’ve come to realise more and more how vital it is for very vulnerable and fragile complex trauma survivors – to have a highly experienced, very empathic and very professional therapist.

And sadly, most do not. And for many reasons cannot access the quality of therapy needed.

For those who are re-traumatised by unprofessional and/or inadequately empathic/insightful therapists – they may never reach out again – as Pete Walker so eloquently and so empathically wrote about. Continue reading


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For those who love dogs :)

This made me smile and made me cry. The part at the end is very emotive.

For those who love dogs, and I know many who have had tough lives – love animals – this is for you.

Animals can be such amazing company, very therapeutic and give us joy ❤


Complex PTSD, Real Human Emotions And Trust ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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It is so important for many complex trauma survivors to see normal and appropriate human reactions – to the horror and abuse they have endured.

My therapist had tears today as we discussed my childhood and my highly abusive mother. My therapist had a good mother and yet was upset knowing how much I missed out, in having a sociopathic/narcissistic mother. So much so, that she had tears.

We’ve had conversations in the past where I have stated when people (including her) don’t have normal reactions to heinous abuse and abusers…. it flags as dangerous to me. It makes me shut down and prevents any trust in that person.

So, it was very validating and helpful in my increasing trust in my therapist, to see this normal human reaction of compassion for all I endured and all the pain, loss and grief I endure.

Building trust with people, when you have suffered so much trauma and betrayal – can take a long time.

I’ve been in therapy now nearly 5 years, and it’s been a rocky time. But, I am in a place, where I am feeling ‘safe enough’ and have enough trust to talk about the worst things, the shame I feel and the pain.

Real, normal human emotions to what we have endured… matters.

And feeling ‘safe enough’ is vital for many of us.

~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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