Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

It’s Necessary For Complex Trauma Survivors – To Understand They Do Not Need To Tolerate Any Form Of Abuse ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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So glad I found the IP blacklist – where you add IP addresses of trolls

I’ve had a lot of trolling, abusive comments and issues from abusive people, on this blog over the time I have been blogging here.

I’ve had paedophiles, sociopaths, narcissists – all troll my blog.

I’ve had abusive people I’ve banned on social media – troll and abuse me here on this blog.

And I’ve dealt with them all, mostly by completely ignoring them.

Now, I have found the place where you can add IP addresses of trolls – so they are blocked. I wish I had found this earlier, but better late than never.

This is the latest one blocked – some troll in Bucharest – venting and trolling for fun. Such narcissistic and sociopathic behaviour. Her ‘screen’ name is Kati Lomer (doubt that is her real name). Her IP address: I also have her email address, used to comment on this site.  Continue reading

I love that I can ignore BS comments, here on WordPress :)

WordPress, have a great function, where you can select which comments are approved.

And thank God, because there are some shitty human beings in this world, who feel so entitled to say some very nasty, irrational, invalidating, victim shaming, abuser protecting/enabling….. BS.

And of course, the downright sociopathic trolls, who don’t like seeing the truth revealed and need to vomit their darkness……. from the safety of their keyboard.

And I can ignore them all on here! Yay!

Thank you WordPress! 🙂

I love the security/safety features of this blog.




Proof, that sociopaths are intentional & proud of who they are.

Too many people choose to believe toxic, personality disordered people, ‘don’t understand what they are’. And would choose to be different. Sorry, but in my experience of too many of them…….. they enjoy being what they are.

This is proof of a ‘proud sociopath’. Who did not have a bad childhood.

Some people…. are just evil.

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He goes on to condescend about my faith, condescend about me being an empathic person, condescend about me having a conscience. Whilst accusing me of being condescending, because I try to wonder if they had childhood trauma (empathy).

Sociopaths, are cold blooded people, who are also hypocrites.

Sociopaths also enjoy trolling…….. looking for empathic people, to vent their darkness onto.

Darkness, hates the light and will always try to destroy the light.

But, I will keep being a light anyway.

Because light is stronger, than darkness.

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Didn’t take long for the trolls to start being abusive about suicide.

Comments on social media – particularly Twitter have now descended further, to outright attacks about people being embarrassing, attention seeking, weak etc.

I knew this would happen, because I know what humanity is like – far too many selfish, lacking in empathy, abusive, coming out to play in their social media playground, looking for ways to vomit their own darkness, to bring others down.

Kicking those vulnerable, while they are already on their knees.

I’ve being advising people repeatedly to avoid media, avoid social media if the current content due to Robin Williams suicide, is affecting them emotionally.

I can see people reacting to provocation – in a highly emotional state. I can see people deliberately winding depressed people up – eg saying suicide is ’embarrassing’ and then when they’ve provoked a reaction – calling the one they have provoked and upset – the bullies.

Typical narcissistic, bullying actions – I’ve seen happening often through my life. I haven’t reacted and just left it alone. I’ve wanted to jump in and defend the person provoked – my protective side of me wanting to help, but I am too fragile to handle it myself right now. Continue reading

Is it a full moon? Seems like all the trolls are out to hunt and prey.

Dealing with trolls on social media is something I am so used to now.

They hunt….

They appear….

They vomit their darkness….

They spew their issues…

They defecate their abuse onto people….

They revel in their darkness…

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Yes, I sure will ban your arse…

I take my role of admin of my community peer support page seriously. I spent a year, trying to reason with rude, unreasonable, narcissistic, angry, nasty people… Then I listened to advice that said ‘why are you even bothering?’.

And it’s true. It’s not my job or responsibility, to fix every unhealthy person. I’ve taken waaaaaaaay too much of that, in the past.

And I do know, I now only endure, what I allow.

So, yes, if you are rude, nasty, inappropriate, unhealthy, mean, narcissistic, passive aggressive etc – then I will ban your arse off my page. I wont be rude to you, or get angry with you. But, I will not tolerate you.

No arguing. No reasoning. I do not have to explain myself. I’m not anyone’s counsellor, or life coach or emotional punch bag.

I’m not here for every unhealthy person, to attack, vomit their shit & darkness onto. And I do admin my page, for the health and well-being of every person there, as I see fit. I understand some may not appreciate, or like that, or agree with my choices, and that is okay….they can take themselves somewhere else, or maybe set up their own page.

I am person, who deserves respect and to be treated with dignity. And I will insist on that.

I am so used to abuse, bullying, lies now, sometimes I wanna say “is that all you got?!”

I am so used to having hateful stuff said to me, done to me, written about me, lies told etc, by abusive types…

That I am now able to deal with it, in a pretty calm manner now. And just see their issues and not react. I know it’s about them, not me.

Sometimes, I feel like saying…..’Is that all you got!?’

Except I don’t, because that just encourages their darkness.

I don’t have to tolerate their issues, and I decide what kind of response is required, if any. But, I definitely see their issues, as I can pick up on them so easily.

I am definitely toughening up. I said in counselling I needed to toughen up, be more resilient to harmful people, but in the right way, and I am.


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Sadly, I’m currently receiving abusive comments here, which I am not approving.

My work, I do here, attracts many people who need to see this info I share and the insight I have into abuse, and abusers.

Which is great, and is why I do this. Partly to vent my own journey, but I choose to do that in a public blog, to help others and I know it does help many.

But, due to the content of the work I do here, it also sometimes attracts the very people I write about, abusive people, narcissistic people, sociopathic people, paedophiles etc.

I’ve been dealing with this now, for over a year, here, on my FB page and over the last 4 months on Twitter.

I expect it to happen.

the great thing about WordPress, is unless I don’t have to approve the comments. And I currently have over 75 comments not approved. This doesn’t include spam.

About half of these are abusive.

The other half are highly suspicious.

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Abusive people, have one set of rules for them, and another for their victims.

Positive Action For PTSD UK continue on their hate and lies, allowing others to believe their lies.

As is typical with abusive people – they have one set of rules for themselves and one for their victims.

They can abuse and lie all they like…..but the victims cannot defend themselves or speak the truth. And if you do speak the truth – then they turn themselves into the victims.

Perfect example;

I found this on Twitter..

So I politely stated that this was further bullying and it was being reported. No bad language, but I did defend myself and explain this was cyberbullying, as it is lies.

And then this appeared – and the woman is calling me a C***.

Simon Buckden, is clearly enticing more people to report. Again based upon his lies and his needs to cyber bully anyone who he doesn’t like.

An update on this post…

Since the admins who were previously working with Simon Buckden – at that time – have found out the truth themselves …….. and that everything that I stated and warned people about, was correct about Mr Buckden…… I did receive a genuine apology and it is now understood between us – that I was indeed trying to protect people and this was with good heart intentions and this former admin and I are now friendly.

Whilst I am sad that whole situation had to occur at all……. I know people have learned from this…… learned that they should not bully people online that they do not even know….. or trust people like Simon Buckden – who is being investigated and has been charged with fraud.

My intentions were good and to help others…… and I was secure in that then…… and I still am.

I received a lot of abuse and hassle, due to that whole horrible situation, but I am still thankful I endured it, as people learned from it.

I will always be someone who defends people who are being lied to and duped by sociopaths/psychopaths….. because there needs to be people with the integrity and compassion required……. to stand up to them, for the wellbeing of others.