Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.


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I Relate All Too Well – With Sinead O’Connor’s Painful Aloneness & Struggle Just To Stay Alive

This video is about being suicidal, so caution in viewing is required.

 

I couldn’t watch all of this. I sat with tears streaming down my face, at the pain I see in Sinead. Pain that I know all too well. I had to stop it halfway through, because the pain was overwhelming me. I hate to see such terrible pain in other people.

To feel like you have no-one except your doctor (or in my case my children) and feel no-one else cares about you, feel that alone, is more beyond my capacity to describe.

To have to live for someone else, but not want to live for yourself, I know well. Continue reading


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Feeling Some Strength & Hope

I drove today for the first time in about 2 months since a broke my hand. My hand is not fully healed by far, but healed enough to be able to drive safely enough.

I forced myself to go out and indulged in some retail therapy, including a gorgeous ballet unicorn plush toy. This was for my inner child, who is grieving deeply.

I bought some little treats like a face mask and a cute watch. All cheap stuff, but enough to make me feel like I was treating myself. Because I matter. I have to matter. I have children who need me. Children I cannot let down.

So this along with some great and much appreciated support I have been receiving online, has been enough for me to have a spark of hope & strength. Continue reading


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Shame Shifting Is Abuse