Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Received another kind request, to become an ‘expert blogger’ on a website.

This morning, I received an email inviting me to become an expert blogger, on a website, with other experts – most of whom are professionals.

It is very validating to know others consider me and this blog – which I realise is a success by it’s stats – worth  considering an expert and all the many requests I have received to become a blogger for others. Continue reading

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Yes, I am still shocked this blog, has not far off half a million views.

I was shocked from the beginning about the popularity of this blog and my website, both having as much traffic as they receive. I didn’t expect it at all.

The power of the written word, of sharing in a frank, honest way, sharing a journey many stay silent about, many don’t understand, topics with great stigma and lack of empathy about ….. is obvious by the stats.

This blog is read by many people in many countries, all round the world, every day. Even with my Facebook page closed down for several weeks, my blog stats have remained as the same.

I know my blogs place high on web searches, under many different topics – abuse, child abuse, PTSD, Complex PTSD, and about different types of abuse and abusive people.

I still find it bizarre, that in under 2 years, this blog has not far off half a million views, and I do realise that is significant in terms of the topics I write about.

I don’t write about ‘nice’ stuff like fashion, cooking, decorating, or ‘positivity fountain’ topics – the usual popular blog topics.

I write about painful, emotional, heartbreaking, soul breaking, horrific life experiences – like child abuse, child sexual abuse, rape, torture, every kind of abuse, psychopaths, narcissists, trauma, suffering, mental health.

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Over 400,000 views on this blog.


My blog just went over 400,000 views…

I can’t deny…..that is pretty amazing…..for a blog that is about unpleasant stuff… abuse, trauma, child abuse, sexual abuse, suicide, abusers… etc.

I am thankful my Blog and all I write and share, is supported by so many, including many mental health professionals who work within the trauma field.

I realise, I really need to get my stuff into a book.

Thank you to everyone who supports all I do and my passion to help others!

Much love, Lilly ❤ ❤

Over 37,000 views on this blog in last 6 weeks, despite cutting way back….

Over the last few months, I have cut way back on the time I spend on my social media accounts. And my social media accounts are where a chunk of my blog views occur. So I had anticipated my blog views would drop considerably.

But, I also have many blog views from worldwide internet searches on related topics too, showing my blog posts come up high in internet search results.

I also have views for this blog via my high traffic Website.

It is bizarre to me still, how many read my blog posts and knowing people from so many countries are sitting reading my stuff, every day.

It’s feel surreal. Especially considering the unpleasant nature of the content of my blog.

It’s not like I blog about cooking, or being a health fanatic, or fashion, or how to be a success, or how to make lots of money, or those ever popular ‘happiness is the be-all-and-end-all of everything’ topics…. many people enjoy and are very popular.

I write about topics that are largely ignored, are taboo and avoided by the general population – abuse, child abuse, sexual abuse, mental health, suicide, self harm, abusive people, types of abuse etc….. Not pleasant topics.

But, it does show how the stuff I write about…….there is a need for.

I cannot deny the level of views this blog has, or minimize what that means.

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It’s not ‘how well you write’ – it’s ‘what you write about’ that matters…as per Huffington Post/Elephant Journal Writer

Some of the most honest, raw pieces I’ve ever written contain not a single punctuation mark and have spelling errors that would make any elementary school teacher slap me with her ruler. It doesn’t matter.

Why? Because the heart doesn’t give a shit when it has something brilliant to say, and neither does the person reading it whose heart bursts wide open because they just heard the truth. ~Rebecca

Rebecca Lammerson, is a successful writer and blogger at Huffpost & Elephant Journal……..expressing exactly what I also believe.

I couldn’t care less whether something I read has perfect grammar and follows the ‘rules’ of all those ‘authors’ obsessed with their grandiose beliefs all ‘perfecting their craft’….*rolls eyes…

I personally care only about the content – does this help people, does it make a difference, does it encourage people to think, does it help society move away from unhealthy focusses, does it help people grow, mature??? etc.

How many ‘well written’ books are being pumped out, that actually contribute very little to society??? Many.

How many ‘well written’ books, lack any depth of content and are written to make money??? Many.

How many books are written – not particularly well – but the content makes a difference??? Many.

I would rather read the last category.

In fact, I do not waste my time on the first two anymore.

I don’t read well written rubbish.

I grew up.

I have declined many invites for guest blogging, writing, speaking etc.

Since this blog and my website became very popular over the last 12 months……I have received countless kind invites for guest blogging, writing, participation in projects, public inspirational speaking events etc.

I’ve received another request and need to decline. I feel very thankful, but I truly know I am not ready as I am still in my own journey, still with much healing yet to process.

I’m aware my capacity for honesty and rawness in sharing my journey, insight into my journey….are not common and seen as inspirational…..along with my motivation to validate, support and educate others in their journey.

I’m very aware I need professional education and training and until I have that, I don’t want to share anything in any manner for others to view as anything other than my own journey.

I see other untrained and non professional people giving inadequate and irresponsible advice and that concerns me greatly. Mental health and trauma are not fields for untrained people.

And I don’t put myself forward as a professional/trained person…my Website clearly states that.

I am, however, very thankful when people do consider me as someone inspirational.


I changed my Blog header pic, for several reasons…& it shows my healing progression..

I changed my header pic, because the last one had a picture of mountains and this journey does feel like a series of mountains to climb, which is why it was originally chosen.

On this last pic, I also had self applied labels, which I am trying to stop focussing on….the labels I had applied to myself being ‘survivor’, ‘author’, ‘educator’, etc.

I am all those things, but they are just positive labels and not all of who I am. So, I decided to ditch them……….and just use my pen name and simply state, “I share my journey, so others know they are not alone”. I want to move away from any of these labels society insists we need, to try to show our ‘outward’ needs to prove we are a ‘success’ and we are ‘important’.

Inner security is to know we are enough, without the labels.

I also decided to use a pic showing the hands making a heart shape. Because I want people to know, I share with others, as an act of love for others. So ditched the mountains 😉

I am aware I am constantly growing and evolving in my mind, heart and soul. I realise and know this will be a life long journey and a journey I am thankful I have the willingness, to be on.

And I know I will also screw up along the way, and learn from this and own it. And I am not afraid of this. I realise more and more, how it is the times we are challenged by suffering and adversity, by our own self being challenged, that we learn the most, grow the most, mature the most. Continue reading