Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.


I will validate the deep strength and resilience, I have developed in my life.

The first 20 years of my life, were hell on earth and I don’t minimize that anymore. And the next 20, were filled with trauma and abuse too. I’ve had to face the depths of it all, to process it, as part of my healing. And it has been trauma in itself, to face it all, fully. It takes a lot of courage.

I realise the depths of my resilience, in never giving in to using illegal drugs, not allowing alcohol to become an issue that impacted my capacity to work and provide for myself. I’ve never ended up in prostitution, or dancing in seedy clubs etc. And all these were handed to me on a plate, and I refused them all. That takes courage.

I’ve never ended up being hospitalised for mental health. Despite having PTSD and Complex PTSD and depression all my life. I’ve had the resilience to manage it enough to stay functioning. And all with no help from anyone, no family help. That takes deep courage.

I’ve got up every single day to look after my children. That takes courage.

I sought help when I knew I could no longer manage it on my own and before it became so impacting and avoided being hospitalised. That takes courage. Continue reading


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“You have to be willing to be patronised, ridiculed” to be a strong voice ~ Meryl Streep.

Wise words from Meryl Streep – who said she lives by the motto “do what you can,” advised women to never “give up or give in in the face of patronizing ridicule, amused disdain or being ignored.” 

http://www.people.com/article/meryl-streep-humanist-not-feminist

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Most of humanity rejects what isn’t understood.

Most of humanity believes their own thoughts must be okay, must be right, must be healthy, without seeking to question.

Most of humanity have views and opinions based upon ignorance, unresolved issues and lack of education or insight.

It takes courage to take that inner journey of growth, introspection, questioning self, being willing to be wrong, being willing to change. Few take this journey. And sadly never mature or grow.

I have indeed faced a considerable amount of patronising, mocking, anger etc…. throughout my life, starting with my own unhealthy and toxic family of origin.

Throughout the last few years I have been writing and reaching out through various social media, I have encountered many trolls, bullies, angry nasty people, covert bullies, who seek to bring good people down. I realise all the many reasons for this and how this is entirely their own issues. There is something that brings out the worst in some people, when they encounter people who are doing good. Sad, but true.

I am no longer concerned about the views and opinions of anyone who is not significant in my life. Continue reading


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Thankful to be able to teach my children empathy, honesty, self worth, responsibility & resilience.

I hold the understanding of all of the consequences of my life/journey and all I have been through.

I hold the capacity to see all the harm, destruction, hurt, pain, suffering and I don’t deny, minimize or invalidate that anymore.

I also have the capacity to see the gifts that have come, in spite of all the abuse.

One of the biggest, is my capacity to teach my children empathy and compassion for others. I talk with my children about how to treat others, how to put themselves into the lives of other people and see it from their point of view and how they feel. How to have compassion for those who have less and to want to help them. How to be a decent human being. How to be honest and take responsibility for their actions. And much more. And I see how this is helping them to grow empathy, responsibility, honesty and compassion. I see their capacity for compassion to others.

I also teach my children self worth and resilience. Continue reading