My mother has died. I’m aware her funeral is on 30th May.
I had counselling today, and we talked about how numb I feel about hearing my mother has died. And how that numb feeling is normal.
We also discussed whether I should attend the funeral. I know that my siblings – will choose to see whatever I do – as wrong.
If I go to funeral – that will wrong.
If I don’t go to the funeral – that will be wrong.
That’s the problem with dysfunctional families. Whatever the scapegoat does, is always wrong.
I have decided not to go. For my own personal needs, I do not need to attend the funeral.
I would have liked to go – to support my siblings, if our relationship was normal. I only went to their father’s funeral – to support them. I wish them nothing but peace. Continue reading