Suppressing trauma, dissociating from it, ignoring it, distracting attention away from it, minimizing it, avoiding emotions etc ….. none of these help healing.
In fact, long term they worsen the consequences of the trauma.
Unprocessed, unhealed trauma never goes away. It festers and is unconsciously expressed as physical illness, mental illness, relationship issues, emotional issues etc.
Suppressing, dissociating and avoiding may work short term as a coping strategy, but never long term.
Healing requires: processing the trauma, knowing the full consequences of it, figuring out all the ways it has affected the survivor, finding out how to manage the mental and physical illness consequences, honestly admitting what the survivor needs to change in terms of thinking, beliefs and behaviours.
Healing also requires grieving and that’s a painful process, that means we have to deal with uncomfortable truths and emotions.
Healing is not an easy, fun or nice process. It’s hard, painful and requires alot of self honesty.
This is why so many don’t heal. It’s too hard. Some don’t have the emotional resources for it all. Some don’t even know what is required to begin to heal.
But, I do believe every survivor can heal to their own capacity, with an understanding of what is needed.
I see too much emotional bypassing, emotion avoidance, dissociating and trauma processing avoidance being encouraged and that makes me sad – because it’s harming people more long term.
I want people to heal to their own capacity and that’s my motivation for my online work.
And that starts with saying what is required to heal and what does not help.
I’ve stopped feeling sad and grieving about all the love, effort and kindness I wasted in a relationship with a toxic abuser…..
And I’ve started feeling excited and hopeful about how it will feel to be in a great relationship with a good, emotionally healthy man, and offer all that love, effort and kindness and…. receive it all back!
And have the relationship I always deserved.
It’s Not All About Me ~ Lilly Hope Lucario
An example…
There are survivors in their 60’s and older – who are still dealing with the effects of complex trauma.
And that’s okay.
There is no timeframe for healing from complex trauma.
I keep this in mind all the time, because the last thing any survivor needs to read – is that everyone should be able to heal fully and in X amount of time. And feel shame for not being ‘healed already’.
Why do I think about this?
Because I’m not ‘all about me’.
I care about other people, their journeys, needs and emotions.
Healing and managing symptoms can be a lifelong journey and there is no shame in that.
And people who do shame other survivors are very selfish and lack empathy – causing harm in the process.
Empathy is vital.
Empathy is about thinking of other people’s journeys and how our words and views impact others.
Empathy is about knowing other people can have life issues that greatly impact the capacity to heal, for no fault of their own.
Empathy is thinking about how my posts impact others and are they written to help, care and support others?
Being an advocate for complex trauma survivors takes empathy to truly be of assistance to others.
Empathy is about others, about the needs of others, caring about the impact of what we do – whilst also maintaining boundaries and caring for self.
There is no advocacy, without empathy.
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One red flag in a narcissistic abuser, is how they view what you do for them and how they view what they should do for you.
This will one of many red flags you can discern.
About 2 years ago, I said to the ex – that for 18 years – he expected to be told how great he is (when he’s not) and wanted continual appreciation for the bare minimum efforts he made in doing things for the family.
Yet, he showed zero appreciation for all the many huge efforts I made, which were in fact far beyond the average, including what I did for him.
When I said to him “you have never shown any appreciation for anything I do for you, never thanked me, not even one time” – his reaction was disgust. His face screwed up in disgust. He had no verbal response, including no awareness how wrong his attitude is. And that reaction was a huge red flag.
He was disgusted at the thought of having to be appreciative, or thank me for my huge efforts, for him, for our children, for our family.
That disgust is the toxic narcissistic ego that believes people are there as objects to be used and abused.
That disgust is their overwhelming sense of entitlement to have victims doing whatever the narc demands, whilst giving nothing of worth back.
It’s proof that they don’t see people as human beings with needs, feelings, emotions. It’s just all about the narc.
It’s proof they don’t see relationships as a two way street. It’s all one way – as per their exploitative and parasitic needs.
These subtle signs and red flags are not always obvious, but when you begin to dissect the relationship and reflect on all the attitudes, motivations and behaviours, you see clearly what the narcissistic abuser truly is.
They are toxic, selfish, entitled, cruel, exploitative parasites and emotional vampires, who suck the life out of you and have no remorse for the harm they cause.
And no-one deserves to be treated that way.
And yes, it’s very normal to be angry and hurt and feel disgusted and repulsed about that abuser. Because their actions and abuse were a choice. And it’s never okay to treat someone so inhumanely.
I educate about abuse and abusers, because interpersonal trauma – abuse – is the main cause of Complex PTSD.
Abuse causes many long term issues that include the victim feeling shame, feeling defective, being vulnerable to more abuse (particularly if a child abuse survivor), re-victimisation, self blame and more.
Part of the healing process is to understand why the abuse occurred – as in truly knowing the abuse was all a reflection of the abuser’s character disturbance and not a reflection of the victim’s worth or value.
The abuse is all about the abuser’s issues and many abusers project blame and shame onto the victim.
The victim/survivor needs to heal from this by learning they were never to blame for the abuse they suffered.
The survivor also needs to learn all the red flags, in order to not be vulnerable to another toxic abuser.
This helps reduce re-victimisation and helps the survivor to engage only in healthy appropriate relationships.
I don’t educate about abusers as an act of hate towards them, I educate about abusers as an act of love for survivors.
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