I have been sat here thinking about psychosis and what is must be like to do something horrible and then find out afterwards, have no memory, and have to live with that for the rest of your life. And how terrible that is, for all concerned. And I have compassion for this.
Then, I suddenly had this – well I don’t know what it is – of thinking about everyone with mental illness. I do believe every action committed by a person, is about psychology. We eat because we have a need to eat, so our brain tells us when we are hungry etc.
Anyone with a mental illness has psychology, that is not how the brain is designed to think. I have PTSD, so my brain makes me re-experience trauma, and it is horrible. It makes me have anxiety. I have complex trauma symptoms of fear of trust/abandonment, to the point where I can feel suicidal etc.
I am able to know, what I have, and that if I could, I would wipe all my childhood, wipe all trauma, any genetic issues I have, and have a healthier mind that does not feel anxiety, does not have trauma repeating etc.
No-one with a healthy mind, will want to have a mental health disorder, or any unhealthy mind stuff/issues, lack of empathy, narcissistic traits, anything. Those with depression, will want it gone and whatever caused it. This applies to abusive people. If they were ‘able’ to think in a healthy way – they would not want their unhealthy mind, whether it be sociopathic disorder, psychopath, paedophile etc.
If they were ‘capable’ of thinking with a healthy mind – they would not choose the disorder they have, but their minds are so unhealthy – they think what they have is okay. A paedophile knows what he is doing is wrong, but wants to do it anyway. Which is a really messed up unhealthy mind/brain stuff. If he was suddenly ‘fixed’ and had a healthy mind, and knew what he had done and the hurt caused and had empathy – he would be devastated – as any normal person would – have huge remorse and deep distress. Continue reading