My husband and I have very different personalities. And that’s okay.
He fully admits he does not have empathy like I do, doesn’t really have any conscience about stuff he had done wrong in the past, doesn’t think about people suffering, or feel any need to help people.
So I call him my mini PP, meaning psychopath. As a little jokey thing between us. He isn’t a psychopath, and I know that, he doesn’t want or look to harm anyone. But he has traits, he fully admits to, that are not in my understanding.
He also could not be a cop, if he was like me. I would make a really bad cop. I would be emotional and cry, and want to take everyone home with me, all the drug addicts and mental health people etc, that I would see are broken and need love. My husband has that capacity to deal with his cop work, with the needed attitude, of being sensitive to people’s needs, mental health, grieving etc, whilst not feeling the level of emotions I do. He also has that capacity to switch off things he sees, when he comes home. Which is quite frankly bizarre to me!
My husband calls me ‘freak’ because I am in society terms.
I’m not really a freak, but again it is our little jokey thing, that just highlights the differences between us. My level of empathy, life wisdom, understanding of human behaviour and what it is driven by, is beyond my husbands capacity, or even his desire to think about.
He believes I should just hate all my abusers and thinks it’s bizarre that I don’t! So, he calls me a freak.
Good thing is, we accept our differences in each other, and I have learned from him and he learns from me.
Doesn’t mean I trust him though. Anyone with ‘those’ traits, becomes pretty unsafe to me. But, I do live with it and accept who he is and he accepts who I am.
Is this healthy, to label each other this way? Well I have a feeling my doctor – who is ‘anti-labelling’, would probably say not….
But, hey – perfect, we ain’t.
🙂
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